all the ups and downs of my life.

i want to go sit by the sea for an entire day, and not say one word the whole time.

i want to build a fort in my living room and spend a week in it.

i want to be part of something enchanted.

i want to slip away from the ‘real world’ and enter a fairytale.

i want things to work out.

i want for my life to fast forward about a year and a half and then i think i will be much happier.

high school sucks.

leababyx3:

1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
3. Buy a DVR and tape your late night shows and get more sleep.
4. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, ‘My purpose is to __________ today.’
5. Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
6. Play more games and read more books than you did in last year.
7. Make time to practice meditation, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6, its refreshing.
9. Dream more while you are awake, day dreaming is amazing.
10. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
11. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip, OR issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
12. Smile and laugh more. It will keep the nagative blues away.
13. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
14. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone, i have learned that this year.
15. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
16. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
17. Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
18. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
19. Forgive everyone for everything.
20. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
21. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
22. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
23. The best is yet to come.
24. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
25. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.
26. Enjoy the ride. Remember this is not Disney World and you certainly don’t want a fast pass. You only have one ride through life so make the most of it and enjoy the ride.
27. Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can’t change.

humansvsrobots:

turdmeister:

because jim and pam got married.
and that sorta makes my life complete.

im going to sleep so well tonight

needs a good book to read, any suggestions?

so, i haven’t posted anything on here in forever. ive been busy with school and work and such. so im just going to start fresh, im not going to give a summary of my summer or anything just explain things as needed as they come up. so here we go again.

currently: my legs will not quit itching, this is AWFUL. im missing someone quite terribly who doesnt exactly feel the same way and its all just so complicated. i need to be sleeping. im cold. i love this new weather, its like a fall-y/winter-ish mix and im in love, but i know itll slip away all to quickly.

i just need someone to be here with me now. who will love me and not judge me. someone who knows nothing about me and all that i tell them will be new to them. someone who appreciates my uniqueness and cherish me for what i am, not what i could be. someone who will hold me hand and kiss me on the forehead. i need a boy to love me, and im too shy to find one.

i cant handle my life right now. i want to be away from here, theres to many things that keep happening and the memories just rush back, i need a getaway.

my life was finally leveling out, i was happy for once. then stuff happened and things went back. and now im in this same sad/depressed-y-ish mood. why does this always happen? am i always going to be this sad, helpless little girl who doesnt know what she wants or needs.

ehh. im going to sleep now.

so…i had these wonderful plans of how i was going to spend this weekend

-planting a small garden(tomatoes, rosemary, basil, ect.)

-hanging my hammock

-reading in my hammock and a nap or two

-planning for my treehouse:)

-visiting with my grandparents

-hanging out with leah

-and anything else.

but…guess how i get to spend it

-stuck in the house

-in my room

-CLEANING

-without any music really because i accidently deleted it all last night:/FML

im so pissed.

my moms like just get it finished and then you can do this stuff.

and its not that my room will take that long, but my closet is BAD.

and i do not understand one bit why the heck i have to keep my freaking closet clean if its not bothering me.

sigh….

Today was an absolutely glorious day.

The weather was amazing and I didn’t go to school:)

I just sat outside for about an hour sipping tea and drawing all the while getting attacked by blood-sucking mosquitoes, but I didn’t worry about it at all.

While out there I got the idea that I want a treehouse.
I want it so that my friends and I can have sleepovers in it, and I can paint the walls and splatter them with gorgeous photos and wonderous quotes. Is that really too much to ask for. I want it so bad right now I can hardly stand it.

Next weekend though, my friends and I are sleeping under the stars:D
This is one of my absolute favorite things to do. Last time we did it we got dewed on so badly…hah.

anyone have an idea for a research paper topic…it can be anything?